Hello everyone, this post took me longer than the others because is a much personal post than the rest. I thought about posting it way to many times because of the it being so personal, but I thought that it might help some of you that are going through the same thing.
So as you may or not know I’m moving to Southampton right now, the reason why I’m moving is to go to university there and study “Fashion Promotion and Communication”. I’ll be staying at uni’s residence for the first year and I’ve been super anxious about it, as you can imagine. It will be the first time I’ll be completely alone and so far away from my family, the most similar situation I’ve been to was 3 years ago in Sweden camping with a group of scouts. It’s so not the same thing because when I was in Sweden I was with a familiar group and now I’ll be alone!
No parents, no brother, no family, no friends. A completely new life, and it’s so scary. For the past weeks I’ve been choosing what I want to take with me, what I can take with me, and what I need to take with me. And it’s so scary, seeing your entire life in 3 big suitcases, and then you stop to think if that’s all, how can you chose, how can you make sure that that is everything?
But on the other hand is so, so amazing how my reality is changing so fast, in a heart beat, in a blink of an eye. And even though it seems crazy and scary it’s an amazing opportunity and a big step that I want to take. And the craziest part is that it seemed like it was yesterday that I was walking with my parents to my super tiny school, with a super, super tiny class, learning how to write and read. And it’s amazing what you learn from school, not just on classrooms but you learn how to make long lasting relationships, and how to be a human being basically. I’m not old, or wise, but I’ve learned; and I feel like the last couple of years I’ve changed so much! I’ve grown out of my little shell.
I remember, me being 12 years old and telling my parents “one day I will leave Portugal and study in a different country”, they thought I was dreaming and always on cloud 9, they always said “maybe, one day who knows…”, but IT IS HAPPENING. And this is no cloud 9. This is reality!!
Maybe one day all of my dreams will became reality as well, and on that day I’ll scream from the top of a mountain “I MADE IT!”, because if there’s one thing I know is that one day I want to look back and know that I lived.